News from the home front

[belphegor1982]

After months of procrastinating, I finally got started on one of the long HH stories I've been jotting down notes for for the past three or four months. It's going to be a longish story (about 15 chapters), slightly on the supernatural side, which is a first for me - so here's hoping I can actually finish it, which would also be a first (so far, stories exceeding 10 chapters have taken me a long, long time to write). So I'm keeping my fingers crossed :o)

I've applied for a couple of jobs for September, and I'm waiting for an answer. It's both junior high school supervisors, and I actually don't want the job - supervising ten-year-olds was stressful enough, but I'm terrified at the thought of handling fifteen-year-olds who'll be taller than me, not to mention helping them with their homework when I never understood a thing about grammar and I'm just terrible at maths. Oh, and I'd have to supervise school cafeteria, too, which means having my lunch a hour or so before the kids. The only perk in one of the jobs is that I could be in charge of the school library on Wednesday mornings. It doesn't help that I spent some of the worst years of my life in junior high school, being bullied and trying to remain as invisible as possible. Of course I've changed since then, but I simply don't want to go back. Too many bad memories.

Ah well. In the meantime, I write as much as I can to make up for future lack of time :o)

Comments

[debriswoman]

Cheering you along from the sidelines, Bel. Here's hoping you have a productive time with your writing.

I suspect the jobs may not be as daunting from the inside. Sorry you had such a tough time at that age, but there may be another 15 year old there, trying to be invisible, who needs someone just like you to come along.

[belphegor1982.livejournal.com]

Thank you for the cheering, Mrs P :o) It's very appreciated.

Believe me, I know there may be miserable 15-year-olds who wonder why they have to go to school and face everybody/thing. There always are if you look closely enough. If I end up working at one of the schools, I will definitely keep an eye open. The worst thing about bullies is that they make you feel like you deserve to be bullied, that it's the natural order of things because you're so worthless you attract troubles. When I went to my mum and told them one girl in particular was being really mean to be, she said that there would be bullies everywhere, and that when this girl was gone someone else would take her place. So the next times I was pushed around I never said anything. I guess what I needed to hear was just "She has a problem, not you. What she's doing is wrong, there's nothing wrong with you." So yeah. I won't go "CONSTANT VIGILANCE" but I'll certainly keep a look out.

(sorry, I tend to ramble :/ )

[debriswoman]

My pleasure, Bel:-)